candlesi held my wrist over a candle,imagined my nerves screaming.they are the only ones that listen to me.i wonder,if tangible signs of destruction would be enoughfor them to look closelyat the millions of lies that swim side-by-side with my blood cells.those little oxygen carriers,they don't know i'm suffocating myself slowly.they are fighting a losing battle.i held my wrist over a candle,long enough for it to hurt,but not long enough to leave a sign.i imagined myself slipping through my fingers,each drop a part of me i lost since gave up.
meltingshe spilled across her bed,an oil-spill of excuses why.they promised they would mop her up,but how could she possibly believe themwhen none of them could see theoil that dripped out of her?they were all blind tothe stain eating her up,polluting her insides.the pain, the ache,the never ending cycle ofpretending she was okay.if only to prevent a nationaldisaster.
mobileyou left me dangling,like a baby's forgotten mobile.you grew up,i hung.we no longer meet.communication must beestablished by you.i can no longer move.
wraithi faded away,like a wraith.was i ever good enough for you?
ten reasons whyone.the first time she kissed you.two.that sock you found, the one that didn't belong to you.three.i love you. i love you. i love you.(don't leave me, don't leave me, don't leave me.)four.soak me in sin. if it means i'll be yours.five.give me everything i've given up for you.i've lost myself in your eyes.six.the time she promised forever.seven.the time she took it back.eight.the ring that was supposed to be hers.now it just sits in your drawer.nine.if you come back, i won't be here.i'm sorry. i can't be yours anymore.ten.please.
lady( fog. )she once believed that there was a world out there.there used to be an island.i wove my world into color,on a loom of shining wood.vaguely, i remember a curse.( light. )the days pass without her notice.once, i almost looked through the window.the flash of my mirror caught me instead,holding me in its reflection of the outside.faintly, i remember a voice.( captivation. )his voice floated through her window.the first time, i did not hear.voices and music always passed by me,not a care for the hazy days i lived.dimly, i remember a funeral.( emptiness. )the mirror cracked from side to side,as i looked outside, and everything became clear.she flew away, from the loom that heald her,entangled in its grasp. she broke, she broke,she took her leave.down the river she floated, a flag of truce,to ease the bloodshed that haunted his footsteps.down the river she floated, her heart,in exchange for his survival.down the river she floated, a
shatterdon't start b r e a k i n g,or you'll find yourself d r o w n i n g.once upon a time,she believed in magic.once upon a time,she hoped for dreams that wouldn'tshatter.
trulysee,when i wrapped that scarf aroundyour neck like a noose,i had meant to keep you.( i never learned to love truly. )see,when i kissed your lips,i knew i would neverlet you go.
dragonflywe are dragonfliesimpossibly thin bodieswe are vanishing